Kinley's Mommy

My life after becoming a mom

Day 25

on December 12, 2015

Today your daddy and I helped a friend move.  It was nice to keep my mind busy, but the thought of going back to work on Monday crept in every now and then.  I am nervous about going back to work.  What are people going to say?  What are children going to ask?  Am I going to cry?  Is it okay to cry?  What is it going to be like seeing my pregnant co-workers?  How much have I changed?  I can’t stay in my hiding place anymore.  I am scared…  I posted a link on Facebook today.  The article is beautiful, it makes me cry every time I read it.  It perfectly sums up my life now.  Every thing the author wrote is what I feel and it told me how I am going to feel for the rest of my life.  She helped ease a fear that I had.  I didn’t know what the future would be like.  I was afraid that the pain would go away and our loss wouldn’t be a big deal.  It terrified me that I was going to feel okay about it.  She showed me through her loss that the pain doesn’t go away…ever!  That comforted me, knowing that I will never be the same and it will never be okay.  I love you so much and in the past 25 days your life has taught me so much.  I hope every one reads the article because number 7 is my favorite.  I love you baby girl.

-Love Mommy

The Article: 7 Things I’ve Learned Since the Loss of My Child

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